I give up...

Not having family makes the holidays pretty uneventful for me. It has never been hard but this year it is hitting me pretty bad. I rely on friends a bit during this time. But not this year. I guess the people I have been spending time with don't get it or me. One of my friends is upset at me because of how I acted when I waited a couple hours for them. Others have made plans and blown them off or decided to do other things.. I throw in the towel. You guys win.. I give up.