Gave it one last shot...

To see the lights before Christmas. I had a very unfortunate turn of events that really pushed me to the limits of keeping myself composed tonight. I was going to see lights after work, but due to what happened, I was barely keeping myself together emotionally. The friend I was supposed to go with invited people along and I just didn't have the composure to deal with others, especially since I was really lookng forward to hanging out with only one person so I would not have to 'act'. I just didn't have the energy or emotional stability to have plans changed again without asking me first. I really needed a friend's shoulder tonight. But, as luck would have it, not possible in a group. This season has really take a toll on me. I hope everyone out there is making the most of theirs.